Fed up!!!

I've been training for about 6 months and started with a cut. I lost a lot of fat but became far too bony and 'sharp' according to my husband!

I've always felt like I could he pushing myself to the point of failure with every rep but I don't, I'm a bit of a pussy and find it painful. Is this why I haven't seen gains in muscle mass?
Saying That, I had a leg and bum session yesterday that I did go to failure on and felt like jelly afterwards so I'm pretty pissed off that I've only got some slight aches in my calves and nothing else in my lower body!!! If I'm not sore I feel like it was worthless and again I didn't push enough BUT I DID!!

I'm really losing heart here and don't know what to do. Coupled with the fact I'm putting weight (fat) back on my bum and stomach.

I'm tempted to cut again just to get rid of the fat and start over.
God knows what to do about my gym sessions.
I have a holiday in a few months and was working on getting a pert and full bum but it's not happening that way.

Please help !!!! I enjoy weightlifting but I'm falling out of love with it at the minute!!!

by sciteach via Bodybuilding.com Forums - Female Bodybuilding