So, after a year of ED recovery I've gained 20 kilos of healthy fat and I'm ready to get back into the gym. I prepped myself for a while with Fitness Blender videos and a humble weight set. I'm surprised my form is still great and my gluteus haven't forgotten how to fire after all this time sedentary. I tried to back squat yesterday and totally humbled myself by struggling under 20 kgs. I know my strength will come back quickly. However, I feel my butt in goblet squats much more, anyway.
I want to get fit and strong again, but I'm finding things a little triggering to the point where I'm weary of even following a routine. I look at Strong Cirves or NROLFW and I get picky. Start thinking too much about macros and numbers and before I know it, I've spent THREE HOURS sitting almost comatose thinking about numbers. Weight, reps, calories, time.
I also really like my body the way it is now and my husband does, too. Although I'm flabby, I'm typically quite boyishly shaped and I have boobs and a butt now which my husband begged me not to lose. I want to keep the same fat level while gaining muscle. I find that when i build my gluteus and lose too much fat, it goes from being a girlish shape to flat, albeit muscular because you can see the butterfly shaped muscles of the gluteus. Like a damn footballers ass.
So, I need advice.
I want to be able to go to the gym and lift moderately without slipping back into old anorexic ways. I'm thinking of completely avoiding the squat rack all together and sticking with kettle bells.
And I want to avoid any fat loss. But when I work out, I tend to shift from a more feminine shape to storing all belly fat. Perhaps it's cortisol? Maybe I push it too hard with too much volume? Yet, I really enjoy Hiit workouts. The fitness Blender stuff was working great for me. I got a great sweat on and I worked my muscles a little. I also lost belly fat without losing anything on my butt and thighs which for me. As a apple/rectangular girl is a good thing aesthetic wise.
Please help, girls. I hate to sound like a whiney, ass obsessed bimbo but I'm struggling between a body I finally love and working out, which is a passion of mine.
I want to get fit and strong again, but I'm finding things a little triggering to the point where I'm weary of even following a routine. I look at Strong Cirves or NROLFW and I get picky. Start thinking too much about macros and numbers and before I know it, I've spent THREE HOURS sitting almost comatose thinking about numbers. Weight, reps, calories, time.
I also really like my body the way it is now and my husband does, too. Although I'm flabby, I'm typically quite boyishly shaped and I have boobs and a butt now which my husband begged me not to lose. I want to keep the same fat level while gaining muscle. I find that when i build my gluteus and lose too much fat, it goes from being a girlish shape to flat, albeit muscular because you can see the butterfly shaped muscles of the gluteus. Like a damn footballers ass.
So, I need advice.
I want to be able to go to the gym and lift moderately without slipping back into old anorexic ways. I'm thinking of completely avoiding the squat rack all together and sticking with kettle bells.
And I want to avoid any fat loss. But when I work out, I tend to shift from a more feminine shape to storing all belly fat. Perhaps it's cortisol? Maybe I push it too hard with too much volume? Yet, I really enjoy Hiit workouts. The fitness Blender stuff was working great for me. I got a great sweat on and I worked my muscles a little. I also lost belly fat without losing anything on my butt and thighs which for me. As a apple/rectangular girl is a good thing aesthetic wise.
Please help, girls. I hate to sound like a whiney, ass obsessed bimbo but I'm struggling between a body I finally love and working out, which is a passion of mine.
by JessRosi via Bodybuilding.com Forums - Female Bodybuilding
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